PORN ADDICTION

There's only a few things I really care about in life. My body. My pad. My ride. My family. My church. My boys. My girls. My porn. - Don Jon (Quote from the movie "Don Jon" 2013)

I was intrigued after a friend posted the movie trailer on her facebook. I haven't watched the movie yet, not sure if I want to watch it, but based on the movie reviews, it was a good smart movie. I guess the trailer caught my attention how Don Jon (the main character) included the church & the porn together.

I could somehow relate to the character, I'd like to share how God saved me from porn addiction. I grew up in a christian school where the motto was "training in righteousness". I was blessed to come to know the Lord when I was in highschool. I remember we had a program in school wherein we are required to attend the youth service every sunday at 2:30pm in the school church. We are in church not because we are blessed or something, but because we are required to do so. The time 2:30pm and the day Sunday is a good time to sleep, watch a movie, hang out with family & just relax, some of us choose not to attend and make our own excuses the next morning signed by our parents why we're not able to attend the program. Thus, we commit more sin. Lol.

Despite having known the Lord, I struggled with habitual sin for many years. I started to watch porn & get addicted to it after a barkada from highschool introduced it. Dala na rin siguro ng raging hormones at works of the devil that is why I used to be tied in pornography and other forms of sexual impurity. Yes I go to church and yes I go back to porn. One day for church the other days of the week puro porn, I remember staying up late till 5 am just to watch porn, kahit may pasok pa sa school ng 7:30 am. Wala pang DSL dati, I buy and spend so much money for internet cards to gratify myself from watching the pornography. Ganon ka progressive at kalala yan, but I am now set free by the precious blood of Christ.

I tried ending the habitual aspect of this sin on my own for years. Grabe I go to church to ask for forgiveness then go back again to pornography then ask for forgiveness na naman. My thoughts are all twisted and I have this thought in mind na "Patatawarin naman ako ni God kaya sige na lang."  But then I attended the Victory Weekend on November 10, 2012, after crying out to God and with the help of prayer from a victory group leader, I realized that I cannot do it on my own. I cried out to God to save me and help me to overcome this sin.  I was then freed of my slavery to sexual impurity. The struggles still lingers, however, with many battles some of them were really intense like ayan na konti na lang bibigay, I still struggles all the way through december 2012 but I can say that I would win many of the battles by the grace of God, but I would also lose some battles. 

After the victory weekend God personally convicted me to stop browsing websites that would only gave the enemy an open door into my life. Although some of the sites were not pornographic, they still appealed to my sinful nature. I used to blog mga kabastusan at kalokohan from my old blogsite, never thought that since I started blogging in 2009 ginagamit pala ako ng enemy para mahulog sa kasalanan ang ibang tao. Although the site were not pornographic at all pero the thoughts and the contents does not glorify God, it was more on self & pleasure glorfying eh. December 2012 when I gave up the old blog and started a new blog, the Jesus is Astig blog.

Since I have stopped browsing pornographic websites, and stopped writing kablogstusan, I have had incredible victory in my life, Jesus is helping me to be obedient to his teachings by reading more on his word (the Bible & some christian books). Jesus is giving me the ability to resist every impure thought that crosses my mind and making me victorious on a regular daily basis now. I have learned that the more time I spend with Christ the more I become victorious from sin. Right now I am blessed to be used by God in mentoring some of my readers, former classmates and friends who would ask more about Jesus in my Jesus is Astig blog. It is my goal now to reach out to those who struggle with this addictions.

 If Don Jon quoted "There's only a few things I really care about in life. My body. My pad. My ride. My family. My church. My boys. My girls. My porn. "  I'll quote "There's only one great thing I should really care about in life. My relationship with JESUS."

Thank you God for saving me from this ugly past, if you are not astig, my life will result into a more uglier future. Thank you for the people you used for me to experience true freedom. Sobrang mas masarap talaga si piling niyo sa kahit ano pa man!

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; The old has gone, the new has come! - 2 Corinthians 5:17 

UPDATE DIN PAG MAY TIME

It's hard to say no to sin. Sin gives so much pleasure. Masarap talaga gumawa ng kasalanan, kung hindi ba naman masarap yan gagawin mo ba naman? Siempre hindi, but after that boooom! condemnation!

There are times in our life or most of the times, we choose to sin rather than to say no to sin. Example if somebody offers you a cigarette or a drink, its easier to say yes than to say no. Why is that? Because we protect our image, we want to be cool, be like them, we don't wanna be called KJ and all that. But the truth of the matter is (lalo na if you are a christian) after you fall into sin, sobra kang macocondemn.

Sa pag gawa ng kasalanan if we keep on practicing them it becomes a habit. The more you do it the more natural it's gonna be. I remember the first time I got drunk, nakakahiya umuwi ng bahay at first, cause you don't know what to say to your parents. Pero nung paulit ulit na akong umiinom, madali ng umuwi ng bahay ng walang takot kase I know what to say and I know how to deal with it.

 So paano tayo iiwas sa pag gawa ng kasalanan? Ganun din, example if someone offers you a cigarette or mag lasingan at gumapang ng sumusuka pauwi, learn how to say "No." Keep practicing on saying no, then it will become a habit. Hindi mo namamalayan ang daming beses mo na pala nakaiwas sa kakasabi mo ng "No!" Huwag naman No! in Jesus name I rebuke you! ang pagsabi. Just say "No." I tell you man, people around you will start to respect you."

I want to speak to my fellow Christians who are still struggling with sin. Pornography, drugs, lies, cigarettes, alcohol drinking, shabu pa o sapatos pa, all kinds of addiction etc. I say that God is in my life now but I'm still struggling as well. That means God still needs to do something in my life. I am no perfect, no one is. Pero we have to work with our best to stay out of it. We should pray for it and continue to seek him. The more time we have in seeking and knowing Christ the less chance we fall in temptations. Kaya sa mga fellow Christians na napapalayo kay Jesus, go back to him brother! It's not late yet! It will never be too late lalo when you involve Jesus in your life. And yeah don't forget to update your relationship with Jesus all the time!

Updating your iphone to iOS 7? Cool!
How about updating your relationship with Christ?

In Your Arms

(Me and my Mommy)

Naaalala mo ba nung bata ka, yung panahon na naglalaro ka tapos nakatulog ka sa sofa o di naman kaya ay sa sahig? Naaalala mo ba na minsan ay binuhat ka ng iyong ama o kaya ng iyo ina upang dalhin ka sa iyong kama? Marahil ay hindi mo na ito naaalala, kung may naaalala ka man, pa ilan-ilan lang. Pero ang katotohanan mula ng isinilang ka, ikaw lang tanging inintindi nila.

Noong bata pa ako, mga walong taong gulang, pagkatapos namin kumain ng hapunan, nakaugalian kong matulog agad sa sofa. Pagkatapos noon ay naaalala kong binubuhat na ako ng aking ina papunta sa aking malambot na kama. Minsan naman eh talagang nakakatulugan ko lang ang paglalaro kaya kung saan saan ako nakakatulog gaya na lamang sa hagdanan, sa upuan o sa sahig katabi ng aking mga laruan.

Naaalala ko rin na kapag nadapa ako o kaya napa away,  naaalala kong sa aking pag iyak binubuhat ako ng aking ina para ako ay patahanin. Naalala kong tumutulo ang aking mga luha pati na ang aking sipon sa kanyang mga balikat. At habang kanyang pinapahiran ang luha sa aking mga mata, patuloy niya akong pinapatahan at pinapaypayan. Kapag basa naman ang aking likod, lalagyan niya ako ng malambot na puting sapin sa likuran at pupulbusan. Naalala ko kung gaano kasarap sa pakiramdam kapag may malambot na sapin sa aking likuran. Alam ko na tuwing ako ay nasa kanyang mga braso, panatag ang loob ko. Ganoon niya ako inalagaan, ganon niya ako minahal.


Sa aking pagtanda ngayon, hindi ko na sila palaging nakakasama , malayo ang aking ina. May mga panahon na sa loob ng isang buwan, ni hindi ko man lang naririnig ang tinig niya. Oo inaalagaan ko ang ibang tao, pero ang sarili kong ina, ni hindi ko man lang marinig at maaninag.

Malaking malaki na rin ang pinagbago. Hindi na nila ako pwedeng patahanin sa aking pag iyak. Hindi na rin ako kayang buhatin kung nakatulog man ako sa kung saan. At lalong hindi na rin niya ako pwedeng sapinan sa tuwing basa ang aking likuran.

Bumuhos ang luha ko. Naramdaman kong muli ang yakap at haplos ng aking ina kahit wala siya sa aking tabi. Nararamdaman kong muli ang pag aaruga sa akin ng aking ina. Ipinararamdam ito ng Diyos sa akin sa tuwing ako'y nakikipagniig sa kanyang piling. Ang pagmamahal ng Diyos ay tulad ng pagmamahal ng aking ina. Alam ko na sa tuwing ako'y mag isang mahihimlay sa gabing malamig at madilim, panatag ang loob kong ako'y mabuting makahihimlay sapagkat alam kong hawak ako ng Diyos sa kanyang mga braso't mga kamay.

Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my righteous right hand.- Isaiah 41:10

- - -Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.” - Deuteronomy 31:6

- - -Casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. - 1 Peter 5:7
- - - I am with you always, to the end of the age.” - Matthew 28:20

(Listen to this song and be blessed)

Q & A

Hi guys! Before I start this blog I would  like to thank all of you for reading and dropping by here always.  I am also grateful to all of you who liked and shared my blog on facebook, praise God we have more than 5000 likes on facebook. Due to the number of new likes I've been receiving questions from people who want to know more about Jesus. That is our goal to make Jesus more famous! Again thank you guys for being a part of sharing the word of Jesus. Let us continue to cause more parties in heaven!

I'd like to answer some of the questions I received on astig's facebook page lately. So let's get started. :)

1."Bakit pa ginawa ng Diyos na iba-iba ang language ng mga tao, yan tuloy kadalasan sa hindi pagkaka unawaan nag uumpisa ang digmaan at di pagkakaunawan." (Bulacan, Philippines)

 I was like "Wow brad ang lalim ng digmaan ah." Haha! I can say that our God is not a boring God. He is a very creative God and he is a God of variety. Kung mapapansin mo, hindi lang tao ang may variety. Pati hayop, iba iba ang ginawa niyang mga hayop. May pusa, kalabaw, aso, daga, unggoy, elepante, giraffe, kambing. Oh di ba ang dami? Hindi lang yan! May iba't ibang klaseng breed pa ang mga yan. Halimbawa ang aso hindi lang nanatiling aso na lang, may iba't ibang lahi pa yan (Example Shih Tzu, beagle, chihuhuahua, golden retriever, german shepherd atbp.)

Isipin mo na lang brad kung hindi creative si God. Ganto ang magiging usapan.
Siya: Ano ang pet mo?
Ikaw: Aso.
Siya: Ako din eh aso.
Ikaw: Wala namang ibang hayop sa planet earth eh. Aso lang.
Siya:  Alam ko. Wala lang, may matanong lang.

Oh di ba? Boring kung walang variety at walang ibang hayop. Ganyan din sa atin brad. Iba't iba man ang lahi natin, iba iba man ang kulay at anyo natin. Binigyan pa rin tayo ng Diyos ng paraan para magkaintindihan, tulad na lamang ng international language. Kung hindi man siya marunong mag salita ng english eh gumawa naman si God ng tao na tinatawag na "Translator." Nasa tao lang talaga brad kung gusto nila mag kaunawaan o hindi. May mga tao nga na iisa na ang language hindi pa rin mag kaunawaan di ba?

2. What does astig mean? What is it in english? Why Jesus is astig? ( New Jersey, USA)

Astig means. . ahmm.. hmmm...lemme think first.. . .hmmmm argghhh! I think there is no exact english translation for the word astig. Some says astig in english means thug. But no Jesus isn't a thug. Lol. The time I was thinking of a blog name, I am thinking of a word to describe Jesus, but I can't come up with just one word, cause there's a lot.  I remember the expression "astig" from the Philippines. When somebody says that you are astig it means you are cool, great, awesome, macho, tough man, amazing, admirable, stunning, wonderful, breath-taking, astonishing, overwhelming, jaw dropping, impressive, majestic, brave, amusing,  extreme and a lot more!!!! So when I say Jesus is astig it means Jesus is the every positive adjective word you can think of. So why Jesus is astig? Let's make it simple. "You won't be here on earth if he is not astig." :)

3. Can you write your blogs in english, so we can understand? ( California, USA)

I for sure have some blogs written in English but not all. The reason why I don't write in english most of the time is because aside from it is not really my primary language, I'd like to minister more on my fellow Filipinos. Filipino first. :) And I used to have a blog which is written in pure tagalog before I started writing in this blog so most of my readers expect me to write in tagalog. :)

For the Lord your God is God of gods and Lord of lords, the great, the mighty, and the awesome God, who is not partial and takes no bribe. - Deutoronomy 10:17I form light and create darkness, I make well-being and create calamity, I am the Lord, who does all these things. - Isaiah 45:7