There's only a few things I
really care about in life. My body. My pad. My ride. My family. My church. My
boys. My girls. My porn. - Don Jon (Quote from the movie "Don Jon"
2013)
I was intrigued after a friend posted the movie trailer on her facebook. I haven't watched the movie yet, not sure if I want to watch it, but based on the movie reviews, it was a good smart movie. I guess the trailer caught my attention how Don Jon (the main character) included the church & the porn together.
I could somehow relate to the character, I'd like to share how God saved me from porn addiction. I grew up in a christian school where the motto was "training in righteousness". I was blessed to come to know the Lord when I was in highschool. I remember we had a program in school wherein we are required to attend the youth service every sunday at 2:30pm in the school church. We are in church not because we are blessed or something, but because we are required to do so. The time 2:30pm and the day Sunday is a good time to sleep, watch a movie, hang out with family & just relax, some of us choose not to attend and make our own excuses the next morning signed by our parents why we're not able to attend the program. Thus, we commit more sin. Lol.
Despite having known the Lord, I struggled with habitual sin for many years. I started to watch porn & get addicted to it after a barkada from highschool introduced it. Dala na rin siguro ng raging hormones at works of the devil that is why I used to be tied in pornography and other forms of sexual impurity. Yes I go to church and yes I go back to porn. One day for church the other days of the week puro porn, I remember staying up late till 5 am just to watch porn, kahit may pasok pa sa school ng 7:30 am. Wala pang DSL dati, I buy and spend so much money for internet cards to gratify myself from watching the pornography. Ganon ka progressive at kalala yan, but I am now set free by the precious blood of Christ.
I tried ending the habitual aspect of this sin on my own for years. Grabe I go to church to ask for forgiveness then go back again to pornography then ask for forgiveness na naman. My thoughts are all twisted and I have this thought in mind na "Patatawarin naman ako ni God kaya sige na lang." But then I attended the Victory Weekend on November 10, 2012, after crying out to God and with the help of prayer from a victory group leader, I realized that I cannot do it on my own. I cried out to God to save me and help me to overcome this sin. I was then freed of my slavery to sexual impurity. The struggles still lingers, however, with many battles some of them were really intense like ayan na konti na lang bibigay, I still struggles all the way through december 2012 but I can say that I would win many of the battles by the grace of God, but I would also lose some battles.
After the victory weekend God personally convicted me to stop browsing websites that would only gave the enemy an open door into my life. Although some of the sites were not pornographic, they still appealed to my sinful nature. I used to blog mga kabastusan at kalokohan from my old blogsite, never thought that since I started blogging in 2009 ginagamit pala ako ng enemy para mahulog sa kasalanan ang ibang tao. Although the site were not pornographic at all pero the thoughts and the contents does not glorify God, it was more on self & pleasure glorfying eh. December 2012 when I gave up the old blog and started a new blog, the Jesus is Astig blog.
Since I have stopped browsing pornographic websites, and stopped writing kablogstusan, I have had incredible victory in my life, Jesus is helping me to be obedient to his teachings by reading more on his word (the Bible & some christian books). Jesus is giving me the ability to resist every impure thought that crosses my mind and making me victorious on a regular daily basis now. I have learned that the more time I spend with Christ the more I become victorious from sin. Right now I am blessed to be used by God in mentoring some of my readers, former classmates and friends who would ask more about Jesus in my Jesus is Astig blog. It is my goal now to reach out to those who struggle with this addictions.
If Don Jon quoted "There's only a few things I really care about in life. My body. My pad. My ride. My family. My church. My boys. My girls. My porn. " I'll quote "There's only one great thing I should really care about in life. My relationship with JESUS."
Thank you God for saving me from this ugly past, if you are not astig, my life will result into a more uglier future. Thank you for the people you used for me to experience true freedom. Sobrang mas masarap talaga si piling niyo sa kahit ano pa man!
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; The old has gone, the new has come! - 2 Corinthians 5:17
I was intrigued after a friend posted the movie trailer on her facebook. I haven't watched the movie yet, not sure if I want to watch it, but based on the movie reviews, it was a good smart movie. I guess the trailer caught my attention how Don Jon (the main character) included the church & the porn together.
I could somehow relate to the character, I'd like to share how God saved me from porn addiction. I grew up in a christian school where the motto was "training in righteousness". I was blessed to come to know the Lord when I was in highschool. I remember we had a program in school wherein we are required to attend the youth service every sunday at 2:30pm in the school church. We are in church not because we are blessed or something, but because we are required to do so. The time 2:30pm and the day Sunday is a good time to sleep, watch a movie, hang out with family & just relax, some of us choose not to attend and make our own excuses the next morning signed by our parents why we're not able to attend the program. Thus, we commit more sin. Lol.
Despite having known the Lord, I struggled with habitual sin for many years. I started to watch porn & get addicted to it after a barkada from highschool introduced it. Dala na rin siguro ng raging hormones at works of the devil that is why I used to be tied in pornography and other forms of sexual impurity. Yes I go to church and yes I go back to porn. One day for church the other days of the week puro porn, I remember staying up late till 5 am just to watch porn, kahit may pasok pa sa school ng 7:30 am. Wala pang DSL dati, I buy and spend so much money for internet cards to gratify myself from watching the pornography. Ganon ka progressive at kalala yan, but I am now set free by the precious blood of Christ.
I tried ending the habitual aspect of this sin on my own for years. Grabe I go to church to ask for forgiveness then go back again to pornography then ask for forgiveness na naman. My thoughts are all twisted and I have this thought in mind na "Patatawarin naman ako ni God kaya sige na lang." But then I attended the Victory Weekend on November 10, 2012, after crying out to God and with the help of prayer from a victory group leader, I realized that I cannot do it on my own. I cried out to God to save me and help me to overcome this sin. I was then freed of my slavery to sexual impurity. The struggles still lingers, however, with many battles some of them were really intense like ayan na konti na lang bibigay, I still struggles all the way through december 2012 but I can say that I would win many of the battles by the grace of God, but I would also lose some battles.
After the victory weekend God personally convicted me to stop browsing websites that would only gave the enemy an open door into my life. Although some of the sites were not pornographic, they still appealed to my sinful nature. I used to blog mga kabastusan at kalokohan from my old blogsite, never thought that since I started blogging in 2009 ginagamit pala ako ng enemy para mahulog sa kasalanan ang ibang tao. Although the site were not pornographic at all pero the thoughts and the contents does not glorify God, it was more on self & pleasure glorfying eh. December 2012 when I gave up the old blog and started a new blog, the Jesus is Astig blog.
Since I have stopped browsing pornographic websites, and stopped writing kablogstusan, I have had incredible victory in my life, Jesus is helping me to be obedient to his teachings by reading more on his word (the Bible & some christian books). Jesus is giving me the ability to resist every impure thought that crosses my mind and making me victorious on a regular daily basis now. I have learned that the more time I spend with Christ the more I become victorious from sin. Right now I am blessed to be used by God in mentoring some of my readers, former classmates and friends who would ask more about Jesus in my Jesus is Astig blog. It is my goal now to reach out to those who struggle with this addictions.
If Don Jon quoted "There's only a few things I really care about in life. My body. My pad. My ride. My family. My church. My boys. My girls. My porn. " I'll quote "There's only one great thing I should really care about in life. My relationship with JESUS."
Thank you God for saving me from this ugly past, if you are not astig, my life will result into a more uglier future. Thank you for the people you used for me to experience true freedom. Sobrang mas masarap talaga si piling niyo sa kahit ano pa man!
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; The old has gone, the new has come! - 2 Corinthians 5:17
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